The Messenger

From an Angel on high
a tender message of love was softly whispered into the ear
of this humble scribe....

Weep not for me
now that I have passed.
Remember the laughter, the affection, the joy
not just the recent tears.
Cherish the memories, our hopes and dreams.
Hold fast to the love that we shared.
Be happy with the time we spent together
and being anew.
For I am not really gone,
I am closer than ever before.
As the morning sun rises
and throughout the busy day...I am with you.
Until the setting sun disappears on the horizon
and we watch the day turn into night...I am here.
You may feel a faint breeze stir round your head, while you slumber
as I gently kiss your forehead, "Good night."
The stars that shine so brightly in my heavenly sky
help me watch over you and keep you from harm.
I am the wind in the trees
and the song of a bird.
I am moonbeams in a midnight sky
and a glorious rainbow after the storm.
I am morning dew
and freshly-fallen snow.
I am a butterfly flying overhead
and a puppy happily at play.
I am a smile on a stranger's face
a gentle touch
a warm embrace.
Listen to the wind for my message of love.
Watch the sun rise and set in the sky with me.
Feel my essence encircle you with warm memories.
Open your heart to know...I am not gone.
Reach deep into your soul...You will find me.
I am here.
Have no fear.
I am with you,
Always.

Truth, You Ask

what is it you ask for
with this steady rain of questions?
is it truth you seek?
you take aim with fearful eyes
and look right through me
load and volley words
in my face
not my heart
why do you not see
the images I convey?
if only you spoke
the language of the soul
is it truth you want to hear?
then speak to me boldly
courageously
with the adventure of a journey
through the smoky illusion
to the source of the flame
what is it you wish to say?
your paper cup and string
cannot resonate with the depth I've lived
my voice echoes
with the thunder of the storms I've transcended
echoes through the valleys
that lay at the footsteps of the mountains I've ascended
do you wish to hear my answers?
over my silence you ask again
again and again
the impaling percussion of canon
enticing the ancient voice of temptation
and darkness
is this where you want to lead me?
to follow
vision filled with the backside of precedents
wisdom necessary and sufficient
to lead me through a hungry machine
feeding on the status quo
devouring bodies
of an unknowing proxy
sacrifices to acceptance
would you be satisfied
with a throbbing head of fear?
what is that you say?
the more I answer the less you hear
it must be my shadow you seek
a dialogue with a skin
shed lifetimes ago
you rake among the fingerprint
while I seek to touch the divine
so did you find the answers you sought
in your conversation with yourself?

You Killed Yourself and Didn't Think of Me

You killed yourself and didn't think of me.
I can't blame you for that, and yet I do,
For now your pain becomes my legacy.

What agony impelled you not to be?
I loved you-wasn't that enough for you?
You killed yourself and didn't think of me,

Nor saw through my eyes what you made me see,
Nor cared about my life when yours was through.
And now your pain becomes my legacy,

And I must fight to keep my sanity,
For what you did defines what must be true:
You killed yourself and didn't think of me.

I cannot think you did it selfishly;
So great a sacrifice leaves nothing due.
But now your pain becomes my legacy,

And I must sail across that bitter sea
That leaves no trace of joy or residue.
You killed yourself and didn't think of me,
So now your pain becomes my legacy.

I Love You, but I'm Not in Love with You

I love you, but I'm not in love with you.
I want your friendship minus your desire.
I would not lead you falsely or betray you.
I feel the tenderness, but not the fire.
I have no reason for my lack of yearning,
No explanation for what I don't feel,
No other love to whom I might be turning,
No anguish to suggest this isn't real.
Passion is a horse that knows no master,
And I cannot with fences make it stay.
It must run free towards daylight or disaster,
Awake to glory in no other way.
So I must say what you don't want to hear,
But it's a truth that both of us must bear

The Truth

Say what you want
Mean what you say
Remember the darkest
Lights of that day

Be who you are
Do as you please
The truth is going to
Bring you to your knees

The truth is that
That we all need
The truth is the end
Of a mystery

The truth is out there
You will see
The truth is out there
For you and me

The truth is out there
The search is not in vain
The truth is out there
Out there in the rain

Say what you want
But you better believe
The truth is a goal
We all must achieve

Just Wanted You to Know: I Love You

Just wanted you to know: I love you.
Months have passed since we became close friends.
Every day I find I'm thinking of you,
Though no word from you that message sends.
And yet we share all other thoughts and feelings:
I cannot wait to tell you of my day,
And you give me the gist of all your dealings,
Which makes me hope we walk in the same way.
Telling you this is opening a door
That never can be closed again, and yet
I must, because I ache for something more,
Something that I must risk all to get.
Some night, perhaps, we'll go hang out somewhere;
I will reach for you, and you'll be there.

I'm Sorry that I Disappointed You

I'm sorry that I disappointed you
And did what I had promised I would not.
Mistakes can often teach someone a lot,
So please give me a chance before we're through.
Of all the punishment for my disgrace,
Regret at losing you has hurt the most.
Recall, I beg of you, this tearful ghost,
Yearning to return to your good grace.